Complicated

I'm sorry but I have to announce that I'm switching blog to the www.kartop.wordpress.com

Mainly for two reasons:
1) I'm hating the new ending (.se) for this blog, because I'm writing in English and I want the blog to have an English address.
2) Wordpress has a lot better iPhone-app. I'm blogging 99% of the time from my phone and therefore I want to switch from blogger. Blogger's app is not even half as good as Wordpress so I'm switching back.

I hope I didn't cause a lot of trouble for you guys by asking you to follow me at www.kartop.wordpress.com instead of here.

New course

Today we'll start on a new course in the university. It's called something with open economy, I don't remember really. I'm a little bit nervous because it seems to be as hard, if not even harder, as the last course.

Hoping that it will be interesting at least.

Accident

I had my exam today. Couldn't sleep yesterday and well, it's when everything went wrong...

In the morning I was very tired, stressed, scared and nervous. I had pain in my stomach because I was so nervous and stressed. Time just run away...

On my way to the university I was in the middle of traffic jam - not a good combination with panic/stress/nervousness. I crashed into another car from behind.

I have pain in my back and in the wad. Tomorrow I'm going to see a doctor. I feel stupid and bad. I'm never going to drive again.

I think that I failed the exam...

This is gonna cost me a lot, the deductible is pretty high. Here is a little bit of damage on my car:

My birthday

Wooohooo, today I'm turning 21. Olli baked a cake for me yestarday and gave it to me in the morning today with coffee. I feel like I'm living the dream (at least when I'm not thinking about the exam that is coming up and that I should study my ass off). A good friend bought a nice breakfast (and gave me earrings) for me at a cafe as a birthday present. Two other dear friends send me flowers... It's nice to have friends. :D
Later in the evening I'll go out for drinks with another friend. It will be fuuuun:D

Flowers that I got 

My cake (called princess cake) that Olli baked.

And ofcourse meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D

“Failure can destroy you if you are weak, but if you are strong, you can destroy failure.” –Wael El-Manzalawy

Sometimes it feels like there is nothing you can do about something. Maybe it's a difficult course in the university (or school) or maybe it's something else...

Well, there is always something you can do. If it's a difficult course in the university - you just need to study harder. If you fail the exam - do it again but study even harder this time.

I'm studying this new course right now - International economics. It's very hard and I'm actually afraid of not making it on this exam. I have not failed on any exams or papers since I started studying in august and now there is a slight possibility that I will. This makes me insecure and I want to give up (not all the time but the thought has passed my mind) but I will not. Because it's okay to fail sometimes, its not the failure itself that's bad - it's what you do with it.

The point of this late-night-blog-post is that everything happens for a reason. If you fail then there's a lesson that you needed to learn.

Now you're just somebody that I used to know

I'm kind of in love in this song right now:

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

How To Make Killer Heels Comfortable

Hairdresser

Been to the hairdresser today, here's before and after picture:

My cat is not as agile as he thinks:

The new course

Today we have started on a new course, international economics. So now I'm trying to read the main literature. It's a little bit hard because it's in English but it's also a good thing because I really feel that I need to practice and get better.

Great weekend

I finally had a weekend without any must-study-feeling. It was awesome. The greatest feeling in the world is when you come home from work (I'm working on Fridays) and you don't have to do anything except for going to the store and buy food. Amazing. Both me and Olli were really tired after a hard week so we were both asleep before ten o'clock in the evening.

On Saturday two friends came over. Olli and me made a dinner for all four of us. We had three different meals. We sat and talked until night and then we went to a place in town for a drink. We had a vary good time.

Yesterday we've been to a shopping center and bought some things (clothes mostly).

three hours left

In about three hours I'll have my exam in macroeconomics, I'm less nervous today than I was yesterday but still very nervous. It feels like I know about everything that we went through but not in detail. That's what scares me. What if I don't know the right details?

Soon, very soon

The exam is in three days so I'm starting the repetition of everything that I think will come at the exam.


Yesterday I was on a long walk with a friend around a lake nearby and around the neighborhood. It was so nice weather outside. The only thing that wasn't good was the wind.

When I came home I baked cupcakes with hazelnuts, delicious. Here's a photo of some cupcakes from yestarday:

Thursday

In about half an hour I'll meet two friends to study for the exam. It's good to study in groups sometimes. If you don't get something or if you misunderstood something - you can always get help from the others. As long as the group isn't that big, then it can be too many different opinions and too much talk about everything else.

Good weekend

I've been with friends and I took it easy. So today it's time to start the studies again. I am going to get an A or a B on this exam. Otherwise I'll be really angry, or I'll still be happy if I'll pass it but not as happy as I could be of I would get an A.

Today I'll study, drink coffee and try to remember every details that are important.

Oh, I almost forgot. Today it is exactly one month left for my birthday. Wiiihhooo, I still love to get and unwrap the presents, just like a little child.

How was your weekend?

Friday

Today I've been cleaning our apartment. It took me the whole day so I didn't had any time for studying. Tonight I'm going out for a drink or two with a friend so hopefully I'll have new energy tomorrow for studies.

Craziness

I don't understand how Pricken (my cat) thinks sometimes. I recorded a video today of our living room when I was away (I left a camera on when I was not home and turned it off when I came back). Just to see what happens when nobody is home...

It only takes a few minutes and then the cat is jumping in the couch and sleeping in the armchair. When he hears someone at the door, he jumps down and acts like nothing has happened. Crazy and smart cat!

Angryyyyyyy

Hi

It's been a while since I've written anything here. I feel like I should write more often to train my english skills. So I'll get better at writing here.

I've been at the university three days in a row. The exam is coming up so I'm starting to get really nervous. I don't know where to start and yeah, I'm too nervous right now.

Last week I had straight hair, what do you think about this look:

Spring

Today it's finally a good, warm, weather here. It was +10 degrees today. So warm and nice.

My birthday is coming up soon, 1 month and 11 days left. Wiiihhhooo.

Goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.